And so we try very hard to pursue these subjects, believing that they will fill up the void. When it doesn’t, then we conclude that, perhaps we picked the wrong subject, and we move on to the next one, convinced that this time, this subject will give us the fulfilment we desire or are looking for.
I find it interesting that it is easier to believe that our lives may be intertwined with a another human person, who will supposedly make us whole, complete us, be the other half, that he/she may have been predestined for us, but yet so much harder to believe that the God who created us in His image and likeness, the God who breathed life into us would have an intricate relationship with us at the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual level.
For those of us who have read the Harry Potter series, we may remember that Voldemort split his life into different Horcruxes and to these Horcruxes he was intrinsically and extrinsically related. That when one of his horcruxes dies, a part of his soul dies too.
Imagine then, how our relationship with God, the Creator would be. Even without confining God to a physical entity, the simple fact that our lives come from God, would indicate a great intrinsic and extrinsic relationship with Him, a relationship, which human wisdom or understanding cannot fully explain. To confine or limit the understanding of The Truth to human mind, would then be foolishness and ignorance.
As my life comes from my Creator, the creation of my being comes from Him, then how much more will my spirit be intrinsically and extrinsically related to Him? It seems almost impossible for me not to acknowledge that the void within me, is then, the longing and desire for the other half, the one to whom my life is intertwined with from the beginning, My God and Creator.
Recently, my mind was opened to a beautiful Truth through TOB. That my desire to love a man, or even just a person in general, is actually God calling me to love Him. Let me try to explain.
God loves us. However, as humans, we find that very hard to grasp simply because God’s love is not a visible element. And so, God creates man for woman, and woman for man, so that the invisible form of His love can be made visible.
And so, God in His loving kindness came to see our limitations, and in return, made it possible for us to see His love through another.
So, woman sees man, is attracted to man. But what actually attracts woman to man, is the god-likeness and the presence of God shining through man, calling woman to man. And this applies vice versa.
God is the divine attraction behind every human person. It is His presence in that person that invites us to him (or Him). Attraction is the commitment to think of a person as something good. And so, the attraction towards the individual is towards the good we see in him/her. Since God is the source of all good, then we are attracted to God through that person, and not to the person alone. God’s light, purity, and love shines through the person inviting me to love God through him (the person). I don’t see God, neither do I see the physical action of His love, but the presence of another human, the opportunity to love him/her makes the invisible love of God visible to my limited vision.
It overwhelms me that God makes such channels possible so, that I may better see, grasp and in return accept His love for me. And in return I love Him through the people around me. When I just dwell on that Truth, I am filled with love and awe for the One who made me. And I am determined to love Him, to the best of my abilities.
Sometimes, we think so hard about God's purpose in our lives. Sometimes, it is that simple. To love and to receive Love. To love God through those around me, and in return allow God to love me, through those around me, and through His direct presence.
Perhaps, when we truly grasp this, then we will treat those around us, with the kind of Love and Respect, we would actually treat God with. Perhaps when we truly grasp this, then we will be reminded of our true purpose and destination, that our peace, belonging, completion lies in God, and not in mere human. Perhaps, when we truly grasp this, we will understand that although God calls us to love Man, above that, He calls us to love Him through that Man, another creation, the another part of the Body of Christ.
