Past few days hasn’t been great for me... I’ve been feeling a little down and depressed... Have been reading a lot for therapeutic effects, sleeping a lot to try to avoid thinking about it, and crying a bit to let the pain and frustration out...
I was trying hard to figure out why certain things turn out the way they do... If I was doing something wrongly, if I needed to change anything, if the problem lied within me... I even became upset with God and had a real argument with Him... and said some things no father should have to hear from his child... I am sure I caused Him much hurt but I know I’m very lucky because He still loves me...
This morning, I was sipping my chocolate milk in front of my table, while just staring into the things on my table and stuck on the wall... and then it hit me...
On the wall, there were cards written with so much love from close friends... On the table there were 2 photo frames encapsulating the amazing friends I have, the love I am blessed with, and a life that was most beautiful... all right there, in front me...
Then, it hit me...
Why is it so easy to miss the things standing right in front of us, that is so beautiful and perfect in so many ways? Why do we become blind to the blessings staring right back at us? Why is it so easy for us to take for granted the people, the relationships, the love, the blessings we have right here, right now?
Why is it so easy to focus on the things we’ve lost? Why is it so easy to get distracted and depressed with the things we don’t have? Why do we become obsessed with the what ifs and should haves? Why is it easier to hold on to past disappointments and hurts? Why is it so easy to depreciate the relationships we have right now, right here because of relationships that we had or could have had?
It was then, it hit me...
How blind one can be... How blind I can be...
Sometimes, we won't realise what we have, even if they were staring right back at us...
It was then, it hit me...
How despite believing in living in the moment, I seem to have forgotten all the things I already have, all the things people would die for... All the love one could only imagine about...
It was then,
I realised how blessed I was, and how thankful I am and how more thankful I should be...
I was trying hard to figure out why certain things turn out the way they do... If I was doing something wrongly, if I needed to change anything, if the problem lied within me... I even became upset with God and had a real argument with Him... and said some things no father should have to hear from his child... I am sure I caused Him much hurt but I know I’m very lucky because He still loves me...
This morning, I was sipping my chocolate milk in front of my table, while just staring into the things on my table and stuck on the wall... and then it hit me...
On the wall, there were cards written with so much love from close friends... On the table there were 2 photo frames encapsulating the amazing friends I have, the love I am blessed with, and a life that was most beautiful... all right there, in front me...
Then, it hit me...
Why is it so easy to miss the things standing right in front of us, that is so beautiful and perfect in so many ways? Why do we become blind to the blessings staring right back at us? Why is it so easy for us to take for granted the people, the relationships, the love, the blessings we have right here, right now?
Why is it so easy to focus on the things we’ve lost? Why is it so easy to get distracted and depressed with the things we don’t have? Why do we become obsessed with the what ifs and should haves? Why is it easier to hold on to past disappointments and hurts? Why is it so easy to depreciate the relationships we have right now, right here because of relationships that we had or could have had?
It was then, it hit me...
How blind one can be... How blind I can be...
Sometimes, we won't realise what we have, even if they were staring right back at us...
It was then, it hit me...
How despite believing in living in the moment, I seem to have forgotten all the things I already have, all the things people would die for... All the love one could only imagine about...
It was then,
I realised how blessed I was, and how thankful I am and how more thankful I should be...
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