When you're confused and lost...
unable to find answers, not even mere directions on where you should head...
and you feel stuck because you want to do it right and make the right decisions this time...
because you want to stop feeling like fool...stop feeling stupid, unworthy, weak and many other negative things...
you know what you want but you don't how to get there...
you see options and you don't see any of it being the right thing to do....
so, you stop... and you continue to think... knowing it's a completely useless action because you know it's not what you want...
sometimes you get angry because you still haven't been able to convince yourself that this is for the best, that everything happens for a reason, that these are all tests and you know you can survive them, that there's rainbow at the end of journey, that you have or will come out of it...
no matter how many times you repeat that to yourself, you still don't believe in those things...
you still don't know what to do...
you tell yourself you're just too uptight... that you should relax and that these things are normal... but again, you don't believe in any of the things you tell yourself..
so, you're stuck again...
and you still don't know what to do...
unable to find answers, not even mere directions on where you should head...
and you feel stuck because you want to do it right and make the right decisions this time...
because you want to stop feeling like fool...stop feeling stupid, unworthy, weak and many other negative things...
you know what you want but you don't how to get there...
you see options and you don't see any of it being the right thing to do....
so, you stop... and you continue to think... knowing it's a completely useless action because you know it's not what you want...
sometimes you get angry because you still haven't been able to convince yourself that this is for the best, that everything happens for a reason, that these are all tests and you know you can survive them, that there's rainbow at the end of journey, that you have or will come out of it...
no matter how many times you repeat that to yourself, you still don't believe in those things...
you still don't know what to do...
you tell yourself you're just too uptight... that you should relax and that these things are normal... but again, you don't believe in any of the things you tell yourself..
so, you're stuck again...
and you still don't know what to do...
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