Imagine…
If it was a Friday night, on a weekend where 100% of your close friends have either gone home or have something better to do, you fall sick with gastritis, excruciating pain and you have run out of your medicine supply…
What do you do?
You curl up in your bed and the pain doesn’t seem to go away…
You know if you fall asleep, you’ll probably won’t feel a thing…
But despite that, falling asleep is not want you seem to want…
You just wished that if only someone, anyone was close enough to you that they’ll come to see you or be with you when you’re not feeling your best… Someone who would get you some hot drinks and some medicine and make you feel that you’re not at all, alone even if you’re far from home and family… cuz they’ll be there as your family…
You badly wished someone would call or msg to see if you’re doing fine…
You think of the people you want to call or msg to let them know that you’re not feeling too well, and a few names pop up but you couldn’t find the courage to let them know because another part of you is telling you that your actions are meaningless, because you know they’re not going to come down to visit you because you know they’re already home and you’re only going to disturb them,
some part of you tell you that you’re only to going to get their sympathy and they might care because they have to, now that they know…
You don’t want sympathy but just people who care genuinely,
So you struggle to decide to tell or not to tell…
And you fell asleep thinking…
You wake the next morning and the pain due to gastritis is gone but you still wonder, will there be someone that you can call without going through the thought process you went through the night before…
That was me...
Yesterday...
If it was a Friday night, on a weekend where 100% of your close friends have either gone home or have something better to do, you fall sick with gastritis, excruciating pain and you have run out of your medicine supply…
What do you do?
You curl up in your bed and the pain doesn’t seem to go away…
You know if you fall asleep, you’ll probably won’t feel a thing…
But despite that, falling asleep is not want you seem to want…
You just wished that if only someone, anyone was close enough to you that they’ll come to see you or be with you when you’re not feeling your best… Someone who would get you some hot drinks and some medicine and make you feel that you’re not at all, alone even if you’re far from home and family… cuz they’ll be there as your family…
You badly wished someone would call or msg to see if you’re doing fine…
You think of the people you want to call or msg to let them know that you’re not feeling too well, and a few names pop up but you couldn’t find the courage to let them know because another part of you is telling you that your actions are meaningless, because you know they’re not going to come down to visit you because you know they’re already home and you’re only going to disturb them,
some part of you tell you that you’re only to going to get their sympathy and they might care because they have to, now that they know…
You don’t want sympathy but just people who care genuinely,
So you struggle to decide to tell or not to tell…
And you fell asleep thinking…
You wake the next morning and the pain due to gastritis is gone but you still wonder, will there be someone that you can call without going through the thought process you went through the night before…
That was me...
Yesterday...
